* Isa pa

1. Three things I want to say to three different people. 

 #1 - Sup.

#2 - Jellow der.

#3 - Tangina mo, gago ka. JOOOOOKE. Jokes are half meant.

2. One of my insecurities. Pag naka dress ako.

3. What turns me on. Yung marunong kumanta, matalino, hindi boring kausap, tapos funny :))

4. One of my bad habits. I talk to myself sometimes :((

5. Who I wish I could be. Angelina Jolie :((

6. Where I want to be right now. Kahit saan!

7. The last thing I ate. Carbonara by my momma

8. Sexiest person that comes to my mind immediately. Brad Pitt :((

9. What song I’m currently listening to. Wala, beep ng FB chat.

10. The last time I cried and why. Kalimutan ko na, basta kakatawa.

11. Something I’m excited about. College!

12. 5 things I like about myself and 5 things I dislike about myself. 

Things I don't like about myself: I talk to myself, I'm kinda weird, I feel awkward most of the time, It's hard for me to make friends when I'm around new people, and I laugh at every single joke. Almost.

Things I like about myself: I'm generally a happy person, I can play the ukulele, I usually am allowed to go anywhere, I like my name, and I don't really care about what other people think. Most of the time.

13. Three things I want right now. Lightsaber, giant spongebob stuffed toy, isaw :((

14. Are you wearing a necklace, who got it for you, where’s it from? Yes, My mom and Idk where :)) It was a gift haha

15. How long was your last phone conversation? Uhm, 10 seconds?

16. What are you looking forward to? COLLEGE!!!

17. Did you get anything off your chest today? Not really?

18. How many rings do you usually wear? None

19. Would you rather go to Canada or California on vacation? Californiaaaaaa

20. Are you wearing jeans, shorts, sweatpants or pajama pants? Shorts! :D

21. Do you call it fall or autumn? We don't have that here. So baka autumn nalang

22. Are you an emotional person? Ishhh

23. It’s 2 in the morning and you get a text message, who is it most likely from? Caste. IKAW LANG NAMAN MADALAS LATE MATULOG EH. HAHA KUNG BINABASA MO NA TO, HI =)))))))

24. Do you like long car rides? Kung masaya yung kasama ko =))

25. Do you have an adult you can talk to about anything? My mom :D

26. Last time you saw your dad? Uhm.. April 1?

27. Have you ever kissed someone in a vehicle? mhmm

28. Do you do your own laundry? Sometimes!

29. Would you like the ability to read minds? Nehh.

30. Has the last person you kissed ever seen you cry? My momma yeahhh duh

31. You’re thinking about a certain person right now, aren’t you? My mom?

32. What will you be doing in five years? SANA GRADUATE NA NG COLLEGE HAHAHA

34. Last 2 people to text you? Zee and Anton

35. Do you know what you want to be when you grow up? Yes.

36. Do you like to cuddle? Sure why not

37. When angry, do you get loud or quiet? Depends on the weather.

38. Did anyone see you kiss the last person you kissed on the lips? Ewan HAHA

39. Have you ever had a best friend of the opposite sex? Yepperzz

40. How’s your hair right now? Nakababa, kulot HAHA

* Jellow derr

1. State your full name: Maria Tatjana Claudeene Maluya Medina

2. State the name that your parents almost named you: Zachary, if I ended up being a boy daw.

3. Which of your relatives do you get along with the most? Uhmm my momma?

4. What was your first job? Ewan. Student? Yun nilalagay ko pag may "Occupation" sa form eh. 

6. Did anything embarassing happen this week? Madami naman eh, every day meron.

7. Do you miss your ex? NO HAHAHA

8. Do people praise you for your looks? Minsan?

9. What is your favorite color of clothing to wear? White! Para presko.

10. How do you wear your makeup? Di ako marunong mag make up =))

11. What are some of your nicknames? Tatj, Bubbles, Kuya

12. How many bedrooms are in your house? 2! :D

13. How many bathrooms? 2 din hihi.

14. Do you have a job? JOBLESS KOIA

15. Do you have a car? Yuh.

16. Do you work out every week? Asa pa.

17. Did you brush your teeth this morning? Duhness.

18. Have you ever kissed someone you never saw again? Sana wag ko na sya makita HAHA

19. Have you ever sang in front of a crowd? Yeah..

20. What kind of bathing suit do you wear? Yung okay naman?

21. Do you like your eyes? Sure why not!

22. Do you think you are pretty? Steady lang

23. Who was the last person you talked to in person? My nanay

24. How much money is in your checking account? Wala akong checking account =))

25. Are you single? YESSSSSSSSS.

26. Do you want kids? Yup!! Madami!

27. Tell me what your back pack looks like: Spongebob? =)) Meron din akong Red nike sting bag!

28. What celebrity do you think is hot? BRAD PITT.

29. Last movie you saw in theatre: MIB3 :))

30. Are you dating the same person you dated last year? Ew no

31. Has someone you were dating ever cheated on you? HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA

32. Have you ever cheated? Nope!

33: Have you kissed someone whose name starts with a ‘J’? Nooooooo

34: What do you like to do in your spare time? Eat

35: Do you have a facebook? If so, would you add the person who sent you this number? Huh?

36: What’s the cutest thing someone’s ever done for you? Clean my room. HAHA JOKE. Pero pweds na din.

37: Who was the last person you texted? Antonio =))

38: How many boyfriends/girlfriends did you have? WALA!

39: How do you look right now? Maganda as always. JOOOOOKE.

40: Who’s the person who first comes to your mind when someone mentions “love”? Nanay ko!

* Note

I wish I could go back to the first time I met you, and turn the other way. I'll make this clear, this is not a love letter.

Sometimes I wish that I could hurt you. Make you feel the pain you made me feel. Make you cry, like how I cried. But you know, if I really did have the chance to, you know I wouldn't. If I treated you the way you treated me, I don't think you would have lasted like I did. When I was looking for someone, I looked around, you weren't there. If having a someone who should make you feel secure, made you insecure, think about it. Is your temporary happiness worth the long term pain?

You won't get what you truly deserve if you're too busy trying to hold on to something you should be letting go of. It is easy thinking about the act.. but to put it into action is another thing. It's never easy to let go of something you cherish so much. Something that made you feel special, or even loved. What keeps you holding on? Is it really the person you are missing, or the feeling of being with someone?

If a person has built up a wall, it is because he or she is afraid. It was built brick by brick, lie after lie, heartbreak after heartbreak. Crying is a language, spoken by the eyes when the mouth can no longer speak of the pain of a broken heart.

Love is mysterious and we can't live without it. It is a driving force in people and it gives them strength. It is something that consumes. Something dangerous, yet sweet. People long for it, but afraid to give it. It gives hope, yet takes it away. I guess, the irony in it is what makes it special.

Everything is going to be alright, maybe not now, but eventually. My life, my choices, my mistakes. I will forgive, but I will never forget. Once my respect is lost, damn hard to get it back.

* Time Flies

I wrote this a year ago for a college application. Man, I miss basketball.
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Never be afraid to fail because everything happens for a reason. Never let what other people think decide who you are.

It was during freshmen year, a Wednesday, when I joined the team. I walked with a batch mate to the foot ball field because she told me that the team jogged around the field every Wednesdays. At that point, I was still unsure why I was there. The coach talked to me and then asked me a question that took me several years to figure out, “Why do you play basketball?"

In my first two years, I was the ultimate bench-warmer. During training, I’d warm-up then go straight to the bench. By the time I got home, I’d still be wearing the same shirt for all the sweat had already dried up. During games, while most of my teammates handled the ball, I would take care of the Gatorade. Sometimes, I wasn’t even part of the league so I would sit on the bleachers. I got to play occasionally when the time remaining on the clock was less than a minute and we were winning or losing by double digits but all that was in the past. The head coach was replaced during the summer of my third year, so the whole system changed. There were a lot of new plays and training schemes. The new coach paid attention to every single one of us. That was when things started to go differently. I took basketball more seriously because I finally felt like I mattered.

Something happened on the first game of my third year. Suddenly, while I was listening to the coach announce the first five players of the game, he mentioned my name. At that moment, I lost it.Something as momentous as this had never happened to me before and I just didn’t know how to cope with the nerves. I could say this though, I was freaking exhilarated.

Sadly, we lost that game.

I wasn’t going to let one loss stop me. I took that defeat and I turned it into my personal form of motivation. With it, I began to expect more from myself. I never again wanted my team to experience the feeling of defeat, the feeling of helplessness, the feeling of failure. We played more games as a team and while playing, I grew as a person. I started to think less about myself and more about others. I played for the name in front of the jersey rather than the one at the back. From then on, I learned how to discipline myself. There was never an excuse to not work harder every chance I could get. I wanted to be a winner. I wanted to make things happen.

I have one more year left to play for La Salle. I’ll do everything I can to help my team win every single game even if it means passing on towels to my teammates, handing over Gatorade, or even sitting on the bench if that is what is needed. But every time I get to play, I make every second count.

Three years ago my coach asked me why I play basketball. The feeling of a basketball in my hands, the swish of the ball when it goes through the hoop, the sound my shoes make when I run on the wooden court, my love for the game — This is my answer.